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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 09:39

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My life is so biszare .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My family never makes their pension either.

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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She found it foreign!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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She was in good health!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

As i do to all so called friends.?

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was 9 years of age.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

When she asked me how she looked .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Who then, do I blame.?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

So, i spoilt her more .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I don,t even have a pension.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He knew the spot.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Would this be the day?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

We were not on the streets..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Put me off passion for life!!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But ive been too sick for many years..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

We all went to grammer schools

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I never cut or harmed myself..

Ive learnt so much.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She wouldn,t have been !

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Im still living with it.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I have no regrets .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But, we were locked up after school.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Especially a lifetime of it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was scared of men, in general

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Why did i forgive my father ?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Comes on , in middle age.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I waited trembling.

I said to her

I could never make a relationship work though!

But it wasn’t much.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I write beautiful poetry .

I was very sick at this time too.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She married twice! .

One cannot live in the past .

So whats the point in blame.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

What did i know ?

I think the readers, may guess!

Was to survive, this bastard.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She loved him until the end.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

It was going to be , some day.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He resisted the act ,that day.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I will be 64.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And i lived it daily.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

This is soul school!.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was seconnd youngest,

All the time i was locked up.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life